So It Seems

The trick is to keep yourself busy. Get a hobby, visit the zoo, join a ministry or be a volunteer - just have something on your hands to keep your mind from wandering towards rather saddening thoughts. I suppose it’s how some people ‘get away from’ – or ‘avoid’ – remembering unhappy incidents. It’s becoming quite a norm recently.

Initially, matters seem as if it will turn out alright. We continue with the flow in our daily activities – and that’s keeping one’s self busy without realizing. However, deniability can only last for so long, until it reaches its limit and reality finally sets in. Overnight changes begin to take effect, ‘sudden realizations’ often kick in as well. We notice that dealing with somewhat emotional events is really, really not easy at all; especially because we’re girls.

We suddenly find out about things that have never been brought up front, unexpected opinions, uncalled for dependencies, certain aspects taken for granted. Our perspectives change, our evaluations change, and it’s a bother why there are some things we don’t change when it is obviously necessary. Sometimes, just the frustration is frustrating. What we need is the willpower and determination to plan our own escape. Likewise, even more courage must come into the picture when the time comes to execute that plan – to get out of the comfort zone of sulking/self-pity and jump start the adrenaline all over again.

As I look back (again) on 2008, I recognize again that God has been helping me through everything I stumble in. With the exception of the few mistaken indulgences, there hasn’t been one time my God has failed me. After every prayer, the comforting sense of peace that comes upon me is an answer in itself. Truly every pure joyous moment is a gift from God. Even so, last year was full of ups and downs, satisfaction and regrets, lessons and mistakes.

“Everything that happens at one moment in your life should not be regretted, but to be learnt from. It becomes part of our history, and there’s where we become who God plans for us to be. How would you know when the next growth spurt is when everything is smooth sailing all the way?”

Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Let’s watch that come to pass.