Absent

I miss my brother.

But heck, I don't even really know what I'm missing. I didn't get to catch him grow taller than me. I didn't get to listen to his voice breaking (we're not virtual people). I don't know what he's like in school. I don't know what he does when he's supposed to be studying. I didn't get to listen to him pick up the guitar watching YouTube. I didn't get to watch or inspire him to keep fit. I don't know what kind of style he's into now. I don't know what he wants to be in the future. I haven't asked him for his opinions in a long time. I don't know what his principles and values are. I don't know what he believes in. I don't know what he bases his decisions on.

I miss my brother. I want to know him, not just hear my mum tell me that he is no longer the boy we used to tease and boss around - because he's growing up and I'm not there. Not cool!

Dear Lord, I pray for Calvin. I pray that he will continue to find favour You, as he has been all this while. May You guide his every step and bless him in all that he does - his studies, his relationships, his being in You. Above all, I pray that Calvin will seek You only to find that with Jesus, there is truth and love and joy. I pray that he will choose You everyday, in everything, every time. May You be his personal Lord and Saviour when he makes the decision to say that prayer.

I pray all this from my heart, in Jesus' Name, Amen.